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thanks giving was okay, loads of stuff going on at the same time. but unfortunately the day ended up with a sad feeling attached to it. (sadness is easier) later on, felt like deleting all my accounts around the internet because every one of them seems to be worthless, but i didn't, instead i'm doing a inner damage control (i guess you can call it that way), we didn't had grey's anatomy this week, which sucks because it's my favorite show besides dexter. i still don't get why some people can't feel good about themselves and start bitching around, they need to figure it out that calling someone fat doesn't make you skinner, calling someone stupid doesn't make you smarter and it goes on and on, it's an never-ending list. we should all mind our own business.

But now, there's a twist to our fairytale. When the good girl suddenly appears to be the bad one. You went to England for two weeks. Before you left you told me how much you would miss me, how much you loved me and my heart waited, longed for you, I bleed inside just for you, because it was pure agony just to be so far away from you. And then the princess cut the prince in two. Just because you didn't wanted me anymore. You never told me why. I know that you never will.

 

One text; "it's over" and it was. You never explained. You were too much of a coward to show me any respect and the worst part is that you knew the whole time the worst ways to break me, to break my already wounded heart. And that was to take away my integrity which you did by not showing me any respect, by treating me like I was a pile of dog-shit. I couldn't sleep or eat for days. Barely talked. All I kept thinking was; why? why? why? I trusted you. I did!

I did everything that I possibly could for you, only you. I ignored friends for you, I swallowed my deepest pride whenever you were grumpy and started to pout. I put up with you even when I really didn't want too, I listen to you when your parents almost got divorced, or when your mother fled to Finland or when you complained about getting a B in a stupid essay instead of a A.