It's not like I won't find someone new, you know.
We both know it's not exactly a question about lack of choice. It's only a matter of time before I stumble across that person who will somehow make my world magic again. Just by looking at me she'll put a hundred different feelings in my body and my head will go completely blank when she smiles. My heart will skip a beat from the slightest sound of my phone, and everything I do when she's not around will be colored by her absence.
I will meet someone who doesn't have that need of playing games and instead of following all kinds of rules, simply follows her heart. Someone who makes me wanna look past all the times I've been hurt and feel like it's actually worth risking everything again. Someone who makes me wanna fight my fears of opening up so I can let her in, because the thought of her not knowing me completely is far worse than my fear of rejection.
Shee will sigh at my stupid jokes and the way I tend to forget stuff and mess everything up, but deep down she'll love it because love's not about accepting each others flaws, it's about loving them because they make us who we are. I will find somebody for whom I am prepared to show not just the strong, independent side of me that the rest of the world know, but also the insecurities that make me wake up in the middle in the night crying because I'm sick of hurting.
We both know it's not exactly a question about lack of choice. It's only a matter of time before I stumble across that person who will somehow make my world magic again. Just by looking at me she'll put a hundred different feelings in my body and my head will go completely blank when she smiles. My heart will skip a beat from the slightest sound of my phone, and everything I do when she's not around will be colored by her absence.
I will meet someone who doesn't have that need of playing games and instead of following all kinds of rules, simply follows her heart. Someone who makes me wanna look past all the times I've been hurt and feel like it's actually worth risking everything again. Someone who makes me wanna fight my fears of opening up so I can let her in, because the thought of her not knowing me completely is far worse than my fear of rejection.
Shee will sigh at my stupid jokes and the way I tend to forget stuff and mess everything up, but deep down she'll love it because love's not about accepting each others flaws, it's about loving them because they make us who we are. I will find somebody for whom I am prepared to show not just the strong, independent side of me that the rest of the world know, but also the insecurities that make me wake up in the middle in the night crying because I'm sick of hurting.
She will not give me my confidence back or make me love myself again. I have no need for a fairytale princess who lifts me up on her castle and saves me. She will make me complete though, in a way no one has ever done before, and together we will get struck by love so hard that nothing will ever be the same again. You see, I know she's out there and I won't stop until I find her. Cause I deserve nothing less than to love someone who loves me back and this I know. So there's really no need for you to worry. She could be right around the corner when I walk out this door today.
The thing is,
With all my heart
I still wish she could have been you.
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